So my brother leaves in a few days. I've been having insane mood swings because of it. I just can't stop thinking about it. I don't want him to go. I'm going to miss him so much. I wish there was a song that I could listen to like I usually do, but no one writes songs with the feelings I have. It's hard because he's my brother, but he's also my best friend, which makes this even harder. Tim was the only person I felt I could talk to for along time and he could always make me feel better. He was the only one who was always there for me. He may have made fun of me alot, but it was all in good fun. We've been friends as long as I can remember; we played games together when we lived in Elmhurst, and then when we got here we hung out all the time. Since he baby sat me alot we spent a good portion of our lives together. There's so much I remember and it just hurts to think about. I don't want to stop making memories with him. He's my big brother, he's my hero and he always has been and always will be. But I don't think this is something anyone can understand. Let alone do I want to talk to anyone about.
Even when I do it doesn't matter. This is why I don't trust people; because when you need them they're never there. Even if they physically are, they change and they don't give a shit anymore. Ya know when your supposed "best-est friend ever" won't fucking respond to anything you send to them. You know they're there but they don't say anything back. They can at least tell you to fuck off because then you'd know it isn't worth your effort to keep trying. It sucks that the one time I really really need something he isn't there. Well he can go fuck a donkey, because that's it. This is one thing he knows how I feel about, he knows how much my brother means to me, and he knows he's leaving soon to go to Iraq and he won't fucking talk to me. Fine then FUCK YOU TOO JOE!
Anyways, in respect to Tim here's his favorite song.
Whatever
Godsmack
And I wonder day to day
I don't like you anyway
I don't need your shit today
You're pathetic in your own way
♥
I feel for you
(better fuckin go away)
I will behave
Better fuckin go away
I'm doing the best I ever did
I'm doing the best that I can
I'm doing the best I ever did
♥
I don't need to fantasize
You are my pet all the time
I don't mind if you go blind
You get what you get
Until you through with my life
♥
I feel for you
(better fuckin go away)
I will behave
You better go away [x2]
♥
I'm doing the best I ever did
I'm doing the best that I can
I'm doing the best I ever did
Now go away [x2]
♥
I'm doing the best I ever did
(go away)
I'm doing the best that I can
(go away) [x2]
♥
I'm doing the best I ever did
I'm doing the best that I can
I'm doing the best I ever did
Now go away!
♥
I'm doing the best I ever did
I'm doing the best that I can
I'm doing the best I ever did
Now go away [x2]
♥
Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!
Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!
♥
I'm doing the best I ever did
(go away)
I'm doing the best that I can
Even when I do it doesn't matter. This is why I don't trust people; because when you need them they're never there. Even if they physically are, they change and they don't give a shit anymore. Ya know when your supposed "best-est friend ever" won't fucking respond to anything you send to them. You know they're there but they don't say anything back. They can at least tell you to fuck off because then you'd know it isn't worth your effort to keep trying. It sucks that the one time I really really need something he isn't there. Well he can go fuck a donkey, because that's it. This is one thing he knows how I feel about, he knows how much my brother means to me, and he knows he's leaving soon to go to Iraq and he won't fucking talk to me. Fine then FUCK YOU TOO JOE!
Anyways, in respect to Tim here's his favorite song.
Whatever
Godsmack
And I wonder day to day
I don't like you anyway
I don't need your shit today
You're pathetic in your own way
♥
I feel for you
(better fuckin go away)
I will behave
Better fuckin go away
I'm doing the best I ever did
I'm doing the best that I can
I'm doing the best I ever did
♥
I don't need to fantasize
You are my pet all the time
I don't mind if you go blind
You get what you get
Until you through with my life
♥
I feel for you
(better fuckin go away)
I will behave
You better go away [x2]
♥
I'm doing the best I ever did
I'm doing the best that I can
I'm doing the best I ever did
Now go away [x2]
♥
I'm doing the best I ever did
(go away)
I'm doing the best that I can
(go away) [x2]
♥
I'm doing the best I ever did
I'm doing the best that I can
I'm doing the best I ever did
Now go away!
♥
I'm doing the best I ever did
I'm doing the best that I can
I'm doing the best I ever did
Now go away [x2]
♥
Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!
Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!
♥
I'm doing the best I ever did
(go away)
I'm doing the best that I can
